I haven't posted for a week

It's all been squats, running, dancing, dumbells, medicine balls.

I haven't been following the exercise plan to the letter because i am utterly exhausted, but i have been exercising for at least an hour every day - it is all turbulence training - i.e. 2 minutes low intensity - one minute highest intensity.

My clothes all fit much better, so here's my measurements for today

Bust - 38.75 (1.75 down)
Waist - 33.75 (.25 down)
Arm - 12 (1" down)
Bum - 43.5 (1.5 down)
Thigh near knee - 19 (2" down)
Thighs widest - 24 (.5" down)

4lbs lost in one week

I've lost 4 whole lbs in one week!! WOOO

A good day yesterday

YEsterday was a great day. I got up, did my exercise, had scrambled egg on rye, came to work - went for a power walk at lunchtime, had a chicken salad. Got home, did my power circuit, went to Zumba class, came home - had a frittata (it was gorgeous) and did half my pyramid before collapsing exhausted into bed.

I felt great and i slept again like a baby.

Today has started well, oatmeal for breakfast with red berries and lunch today is soya bean salad with tuna.

Tonight is leftover fritata and a personal trainer session at the gym. Woo!

SANDWICH ATTACK!!!!

It happens to the best of us - i fell off the wagon at a meeting today.

Looong, boring meeting and hadn't had a snack in the morning so scoffed a sandwich and some sausage rolls.

NOT proud of myself, i've upped my water and my exercise so hopefully it's just a blot on an otherwise pretty landscape.

Knackered Knee work around

Messed up my knee on Wednesday night and it's been hard to do squats since, but i've been favouring my knee and doing all the other exercises that i can.

Today my butt is smaller, my bust is smaller and my thighs are smaller but my waist is a bit bigger - however it is definitely trimmer and firmer so i'm not going to cry into my quinoa.

As i've said before - when i'm waving i always have a small bit of carbs in the morning to stop my body getting too acidic - last time i went carb free i had an aryhthmia so i'm not going there again. One single rye cracker is all i need to keep me going.

Last night was a triumph!! I unexpectedly had to take my next door neighbour's very sick daughter while she had to go to work (she's an ER doctor) so i was pretty stressed which usually means over eating. However i'd roasted a ton of veggie earlier in the day and i filled up on those and chicken. So i didn't stress binge and i still feel great.

I did eat half a chocolate cookie yesterday, but i'm back on the wagon today.

It's Sunday and I PROMISED i wouldnt binge tonight and i WONT!! I wont wont wont.

Friday and i just can't eat bad food!

I started sneezing up a storm yesterday at work and by the time i got home had a runny nose and all the symptoms of yet another cold. I ate a really healthy grilled veggie and chicken dinner dosed myself with double vit c, my magnesium, calcium and zinc supplements and went to bed with a hot lemon drink.

I lay in bed thinking that i couldn't possibly have the cold again. Not again - not me. I literally thought the cold away and have woken today feeling so much better.

Breakfast was unfortunately a banana on the run and some brazil nuts. Lunch has been some cajun spiced chicken with salad and live yoghurt.

I did no exercise except twists and dumbells yesterday because i fell on the ice and twisted my knee, everything hurt - it's much better today and have done a power circuit, i've got ZUMBA class tonight then pyramid before bed.

Weigh in at the gym

At the end of last night after a punishing hour with my personal trainer, her scales said i was 12st 13 - which i suppose is fair considering i'd just drunk about 2 litres and was fully dressed with trainers.

So, my scales are in the bin!!

Day 2 of the wave - breakfast was veggies, olives and seeds. Actually hugely tasty.

Lunch is green veg soup

Dinner will be roasted aubergine with some kind of protein - haven't figured it out yet. Need to up my protein because my muscles hurt.

I BOUNCED out of bed this morning, feeling great - i usually find it takes me 6 days to get used to the elimination diet and feel great. But i feel GREAT

I went to bed last night listening to Marissa Peers CD and today it's been even easier not to think of sugar and wheat and baked goodies.

I am loving this, i'm loving the support.

Scales are for fish

Last night's dinner was a delicious stir fry with veg and tofu - i've plenty left for tonight. Breakfast was an oatbar - which was wrong but i'm moving on from that.

Lunch today will be a soy bean salad and tuna. Yum...

I do need to at least eat carbs in the morning, even if it's one single Rye cracker. If i dont eat carbs at all i find my heart races and i feel dizzy.

I weighed myself this morning, despite starting this adventure on 1 January at 12 stone 8 - my scales now tell me I'm 13 stone 5. So, according to my scales i''ve gained 11lbs in 6 days - this is simply not possible - plus my clothes are less tight and my boots more comfortable on my calves so, basically, they're very wrong - i'm throwing them out and will allow my personal trainer to weigh me once a week at the gym.

So my 3 day weigh ins will be based around measurements and not weight.

It's quite demoralising but i'm not going to let it get to me...

Ok time to find something to do _instead_ of eating. Sunday nights are my bad nights - in fact any time when i'm left alone - i am a secret eater after all.

This coming Sunday i will break the habit - no bingeing to the point of discomfort, no planning what i'm going to scoff. None of that - i'm breaking the habit this week!

I will replace it with - pampering myself. A pedicure, a manicure, an exfoliate and moisturise session for ME!! :) I have said it here, my goal for this week is to break the emotional eating habit.

Baack to work

Yesterday was weird.

I did all my exercise and had a few chocolate in the afternoon then found i wasn't hungry at all at night so i decided simply not to eat. OVernight was a bit bad because the house was so cold and Bobby woke a few times so i woke tired but again, not hungry so i haven't had breakfast and i haven't done my exercise because i'm back at work.

I might just try to push through til dinner time and have a full days fasting.

Feeling better about most things but keep going back and reading my last post in wonder.

overeater who doesn't believe in god

I don't really believe in god in the traditional way which is a shame because i would benefit from visiting overeaters anonymous. Unfortunately, i don't think that giving myself over to a higher power will save me from the biscuit tin. I think i'm going to have to do this one myself.

Forgive me, but i'm going to rant here for a bit in the hope that it helps.

1. We were not allowed treats. Never, we didn't ever have biscuits or sweet juice in the house. Therefore, every penny of my pocket money went on these forbidden foods. Even my dad would pig out on chocolate biscuits - i once caught him at my grandmothers house stuffing biscuits into his face.

I can eat these foods when i want to now - but i know they harm me and i choose to no longer crave them.

2. My mother put me on a diet from a young age. My mother has never been over 140lbs in her life. She has never even been overweight but she put so much emphasis on how fat i was (i am broad, i have very big feet and a big head - although i was a size 10 throughout my teens) so she restricted my food even further and made me crave and obsess about food.

I can choose what i eat, when i want to eat it. I do not need to obsess about food - it is always there. I earn enough money to be able to eat whatever i want but i choose to feed my body healthy, nutritious food.

3. I'm a secret eater, if mum ever saw me eating she would call me a piggywig or tell me my eyes were bigger than my stomach - therefore eating alone is guilt free.

Secret eating is not guilt free - even if no one sees me, it still adds weight and damages my body and self esteem.

4. When my parents divorced and i went to live with my mum, i left my friends behind. Friday and Saturday nights had been going out with mates nights but they became staying at home alone nights. Mum gave me money for videos so that i would have something to do - i spent it all on expensive junk food from the deli - fried bagel chips, cheese popcorn and chocolates. This food became my night out - it replaced the love and companionship of my friends and family.

Food is not love, food is not comfort. It is fuel. I will no longer eat when i need love - i will instead find love, get a hug from someone or be kind to myself.

Ok - i think that might have been my first step down a healthier road......

Wow - that was great...really enjoyed that....

ok, not weighed myself because my scales have me being 3 lbs heavier than the ones at the gym and everyone there swears they're right - so who am i to question it?

According to my measurements i've lost about 1/2 inch all over - so thats about 4 inches in total already. Really quite astonishing.

Breakfast was one slice of rye toast with peanut butter.

Lucnh was my own home made lentil soup with smoked bacon - delicious!!

Dinner has not been had yet because i was making amaretti truffles this afternoon as a gift to someone and i had a few....which was stupid and i'm disappointed in myself.

Dinner will be a stir fry with turkey.

Tomorrow i'm back at work and i'm always super strict at work.

January 3 - ok it's time to look at WHY i'm consistently overweight

IT's time to look at WHY I'm overweight - yes, i eat too much but why do i want to. Why do i feel the need to stuff my mouth with chocolate and crisps and potatoes and butter and all the things which i know for a fact i don't need or even like particularly.

Over the next thirty days i'm going to get to the bottom of it, AND because Annette made me really pause for thought there, i'm going to find out what i can do to protect myself from constant illness.

Right - i'm off to Boots (our BIG pharmacy) to get milk thistle for my liver, magnesium and zinc as recommended by Dax.

Exerciuse so far - personal circuit and 40 mins at the gym doing weights and interval training. IT was so hard today after all the Dax workouts.

Today so far, I had 1 boiled egg with oatcakes, blueberries
Lunch was delicious turkey fillet rolled in sesame and pumpkin seeds then baked in the over LOVELY with various lovely crunchy peppers.

Had loads water and the caffeine headache seems to be gone.

January 2

It's been an ok day - i woke up with a terrible pain in my head - a mix of caffeine withdrawal and sinusitis. The meltdown exercises took care of that though (along with some nurofen)

I suspect it might be easy to fit in the exercise because i'm not at work - I'm wrackingmy brains for a place to do my lunchtime workouts and have decided on the fairly roomy and always empty bathroom behind our conference room.

Anyway - I woke very late due to my head pain and the fact that husband was looking after the toddler, so i didnt have breaklfast so i went straight for lunch

OAtcakes (home made) with two scrambled eggs

Snack Smoothie made of freshly squeezed orange juice, blueberries and grapes = delicious and 10 brazil nuts.

That's it so far. I'm not thinking about food so much today :)

Dinner was organic beef hamburger with a huge salad. Yum yum yum

Did ALL my workouts, including trying to run outside which was DUMB - it's an ice rink out there

New Years day - good start

Got up early, did my first workout in Dax's Meltdown Plan (http://www.londonpersonaltrainingstudio.com/) - Meltdown using 3kg dumbells for arm presses and squats. Felt good.

Weigh in at 1 January 2010 is 176lbs
Bust: 40.5
Waist: 34"
Arm:13"
Bum (Butt/Ass/Hips): 45"
Thighs nearer knee: 21"
Thighs nearer bum: 24.5


Breakfast was porridge with blueberries and a boiled egg

Snack is half banana and some seeds

Pre lunch workout is an interval run with the dogs.

Got my mother in law's new year day dinner today but i'll body swerve the carbs and the dairy

OK, i avoided the pastry and the cheese but i did eat a piece of bread, a sliver of cheesecake. I did not drink any alcohol - i think that is the only good thing i did.

Time for power circuit.